Blessed

I am feeling very blessed today. My kids are good for the most part aside from the normal sibling rivalry. They do what I ask when I ask without complaint most of the time. I get to stay home with them every day and watch them grow into intelligent, beautiful, productive little people. I have an incredible husband that is willing to do anything and everything to not just make life livable, but to make it awesome for our family. He supports me, and listens to my counsel. He doesn't complain about having to help me with anything, and most times just does things without me even asking. We are a part of a very family oriented church that is truly teaching the word of God. We have great friends that help with whatever we need and don't ask for anything in return. I am just so loving my life! Thank you Lord.

Woe is me...

I am having a hard time not feeling sorry for myself this morning. Our van broke down, but that is not the worse part. The bad part of it is we were on our way to a class the kids have been looking forward to for like a month. They have been talking about it and asking when it was over and over. It was harder to accept that I had to tell them they couldn't go then it was for me to accept that I have a huge problem on my hands. Peter is at work so he doesn't even know yet that this has happened. I hate giving him bad news! I know that all things happen for a reason so I choose to believe we would have been in a car wreck or gone somewhere we shouldn't go had the van still been working. It's just hard to be in one of the dips of the roller coaster! I am grateful that we have one working vehicle so at least we are not in a position that Peter can't get back and forth to work. Praise God that we are in a place in our lives that we will be able to fix the problem sooner rather than later. Had this happened a couple of months ago we would be without the van for some time. Hopefully we will be able to get it fixed by the end of next month so 4-6 weeks isn't too long. Today is a stinky day!

Growing

I have been reading a book by Dennis Rainey and David Boehi called The Best Gift You Can Ever Give Your Parents for about a week now. It is killing me! There are so many things that have touched home about my role in the relationship I have with both my parents, and Peter's parents. I always felt justified in decisions made, and the way I have been towards all of them until now. I now realize that I play just as significant a role in it all as they do. I realize that God commanded me to honor them. I am working through some things, but I am moving towards this new goal. Throughout the book Dennis and David speak about several main points. Giving compassion, granting forgiveness, and honoring. I find that I have severely lacked on all three of those things with all of my parents in the past and currently. It has been a very hard book to read, but I know that it is because I am growing in Christ. I love all of these people, but I have not honored any of them. So onto more growing pains... Paige is potty training. Oh the joys! lol. Really though she is doing great. After about a week of potty training she is going on her own accord every time she goes #1. Unfortunately she has a need to watch the process so she pulls her belly up and in that aims it out off of the potty! She is going though and that is what really counts. She is not at all about going #2 on the potty though! She has had an accident with that every day. Hopefully she will realize soon that going #2 in your pants is nasty.

Decisions, Decisions

Well we have found where we definately want to move to once our lease is up here in October. I am worried about being able to rent there due to the strict standards for getting approved. I have a broken lease on my record from years ago, and even though it has been paid off most places require a much higher deposit because of it. I have no idea how we are going to come up with the deposit to begin with much less if it's even higher than the regular required deposit. It is a nice place gated community with a big pool and playground areas. It is not in the area of town I would prefer, but for what you get living there verses the rent amount it will be worth my drive across town for church and stuff. Money is a major stress right now for us. It seems as though everything is hitting at once in that department. We are losing a portion of the child support we get every month, my insurance is about to kick in which is a blessing but very expensive, we need deposit and application fee plus the actual moving cost money, and our electric bill is insane because our ac didn't work properly for several weeks so we ran it 24/7. It's all very scary, but I know we will come out of it ok. God will provide for us what we need to make his will happen, and that is what is important. It is much harder to think of that when I am stressed though! lol.

Can't beat 'em, join 'em...

Well it has been well over 100 degrees in Wichita Falls for like 43 consecutive days or something like that. It's been getting up to like 113ish every day! My a/c and pretty much everyone else's here in the area is not able to keep up. So I decided today since I can't beat the heat I will just give in. I set my a/c to 83 today and I will be happy if it can keep up with that (though I doubt it). It has been almost 90 degrees in this apartment for weeks now every day. It finally starts cooling off usually around 4 am, and never does get down past about 75 period. This process has made me be so much more thankful for the things we have. I couldn't help but cry when thinking a few nights ago about the homeless. In the winter everyone rallies around to get them blankets and coats, but there is not much to do for the summer heat. Maybe we should be gathering hand held fans, and spray bottles? I just don't know that any effort I make will be supported nor helpful. Anyway my thoughts and prayers are with those without air conditioning whether they be homeless or just can't afford to fix a broken unit.